I understand. At that point in my experience, I didn't commit to too much in advance socially because I never knew whether my emotional state would allow me to behave appropriately. Putting on the "I'm ok" mask worked most but not all of the time, and occasionally the mask would slip when someone pressed me a little harder than pleasantries as to how I was doing. Waiting to figure out whether today is a good day or a bad day before deciding to be social is an entirely reasonable thing.