Oh, right. I remember this ulcer...

[jducoeur]

Pardon me a minute, but I need a good rant.

There is nothing lonelier, more frustrating, more confusing, more aggravating, more depressing, harder on sleep and happiness, more unpleasant, more terrifying, more uncertain, and generally harder on the intestines than Trying To Do The Right Thing.

On the one hand, I see a serious problem. I can't just let that problem lie there looming -- it's not in my nature. I have a deep-seated need to know that there is hope, and will push in the direction of hope if I can.

But it is a painful process. Trying to lead when I am by no means certain of the right thing to do is more frightening than anything else I can imagine. Taking the heat from all sides is painful. The sheer painful need to *yell* is remarkably intense, and not always easy to keep in check, but a luxury I can't afford.

So if I seem to be occasionally a bit cranky, forgive me. All I really *want* is to spend this month reading comics, playing games, writing and designing -- anything but Dealing. Hell, I'd like to pull the sheets over my head and whimper; keeping myself on the fair side of the Depression borderline is one of the hardest parts of this. But that doesn't appear to be an option.

Sigh. I need a hug.

Okay, rant over, and happy face back on. (Well, no -- but at least calm face back on.) I am reminded of exactly why I sometimes hate being in a position of leadership...

Comments

[cvirtue.livejournal.com]

You have my sympathies. Is it something for which I can be of any help?

Meanwhile, do yell -- in private. Write out the nastiness and then tear it up; these things can help sometimes.

[rufinia.livejournal.com]

::hug::

[madamruppy.livejournal.com]

hugs

[cellio]

{hug}

Is there anything I can do to help?

[keshwyn]

*hug*

*longer than usual hug*

If ranting at me would be useful, please let me know. If I can help, please let me know. Otherwise, I will try to give you a real hug, in person, next time I see you.

And maybe a backrub or fresh-baked bread or something. Because you sound like you need it.

[kellan_the_tabby]

I am reminded of exactly why I sometimes hate being in a position of leadership...

I know the feeling...

You're allowed a certain amount of crankitude and I'd take advantage of that, especially given a safe audience who has already been warned of said crankitude...

*hug* Good luck and here's hoping whatever it is turns out well.

[asdr83.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Great big hug!

[ladyariadne.livejournal.com]

You can join me in my clubhouse if you want empathetic sympathy and I will be happy to give you some. I feel the same way and thats all I seem to be doing lately is dealing. ITs a scary, heartrending and lonely place to be when you really odnt like to be there doing it.

I feel for you from my heart my friend. Justknow you are not alone out there.

((((((((((((((((((((Justin))))))))))))))))))))))))

[rickthefightguy.livejournal.com]

What is the group you are leading and what is their problem? If you don't mind my asking.
Keep on doing the right thing. I admire it, and the world revolves around my admiration :-)
See you at War?

[jducoeur]

See you at War?

Possibly. We actually hadn't planned on it. There's a chance that I'll due a Court Flyby, but that's still up in the air. (So to speak...)

[chaiya.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[meranthi.livejournal.com]

*HUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUG*

Ace in the hole

[cristovau.livejournal.com]

anything but Dealing.

I thought you liked dealing :^)

My sympathy on this difficulty.

Here's hoping and offering you plenty of help.

[bess.livejournal.com]

Big Hugs!

Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help.