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Okay, time to use LJ as a virtual wake again. Thanks to everyone for the many condolences. (And double to [livejournal.com profile] cvirtue for the cookies I found hanging on our front door this evening. Chocolate chips are always a blessing.) It's really sinking in more tonight. For the first time since we bought this house some 15 years ago, there are no cats in it. It's really much too quiet. I'm resolved to not get another cat until we move to a new place; we'll see whether that resolve wavers over time. But in the meantime, some memories of the boy.

Merlin was our second cat -- we got him when Comet was a year or two old, specifically to be Comet's pet cat. Comet was initially a bit dubious about this idea, but once he caught on to it he was always a bit protective of his little brother, in a distinctly alpha-dominance sort of way: alternately licking his ears and getting into scuffles with him. We did eventually decide to get Merlin a pet cat as well, but he got a stuffed one, to avoid the danger of infinite regress. Merlin quickly got nicknamed "Junior", which was how Comet got the moniker of "Senior". (The stuffed one is named "Tertius".)

We got him from the Salem Animal Shelter. Comet was already starting to spud a bit, so I was very explicit that I wanted a cat with Personality. This I found in spades -- when they opened up Merlin's cage, he basically ran up my arm, onto my shoulder and started alternately purring and mewing at me. He was slightly older than we'd originally intended, perhaps a dozen weeks, but he was clearly the right cat for us. The name Merlin was a direct reaction to his original name. I love the Salem Shelter all to bits, but you just *can't* name a black cat "Lancelot". We decided to switch it to Merlin before we even left the parking lot.

He had a bit of Peter Pan Syndrome, and never really grew up -- perhaps in reaction to Comet's orneriness, Merlin stayed kittenishly playful almost his entire life. He was never a lap cat for me (until the very end), but we would play a lot: he was always up for a bit of roughhousing, and would purr ever louder the more I would pick him up and bat him around. He had a great fondness for toys, but never for purchased ones -- his favorites were the paper bags from my comic books (just the right size to serve him as a cave) and Fun Round Things like ping pong balls and frozen peas, which he would send rattling back and forth on the kitchen floor.

Whereas Comet was always content with cat food, Merlin always preferred the real thing: a staple of dinnertime prep was him meowing around my ankles for a bit of chopped-up beef or shrimp or chicken or even asparagus -- as far as I could tell, he considered anything that we ate to be fair game for him. (He was especially fond of ranch potato chips, which he would lick into utter sogginess.) He victimized [livejournal.com profile] msmemory terribly: whenever we would eat dinner, he would go after it, either "subtly" (in the cat sense of sedately walking across her shoulders and down onto the arm of her chair for easy access to her plate) or overtly (doing the full Antonio-Banderas-as-Puss-in-Boots full court press of big eyes staring at the food). Not that we ever really disciplined him properly -- for every three times he'd get tossed onto the floor, she'd actually give him a nibble once, so he wasn't exactly dissuaded.

He was a curious kind of squirmer. [livejournal.com profile] msmemory could hold him on her shoulder for a little while -- she has a real touch with cats, and can handle many that are considered entirely too restless for it, but even she could only hold him for a short while before he would insist on being let down. But he loved "show cat" position: if you picked him up with both hands at the ends of his torso and held him over your head, he found it endlessly fascinating. Far as I can tell, it was Kitty Flying for him, even if he didn't do anything except study the ceiling.

He literally walked all over me: the cat tree sits behind my easy chair, and he would walk right up my chest onto it. Or, in his more energetic days, jump from the floor onto the edge of my chair, and then right over my head to hit the tree at the five-foot mark -- always a bit disconcerting, but his aim was excellent, as was his strength until the last year. Indeed, for his first five years it was almost impossible to find a safe place in the house, because he was able to jump six feet straight up onto the top of the bookcases.

He will be missed terribly. Much though I loved Comet, Merlin was always my favorite -- even when he was being a pain in the butt (which was frequently), he was so friendly and enthusiastic that it was still sweet. I'm going to have to work very hard not to compare our next cats to him, since he set a very high standard.

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Date: 2005-02-01 12:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jdulac.livejournal.com
profound sympathies...

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Date: 2005-02-01 12:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] antoniseb.livejournal.com
I barely knew them, aside from trying not to accidentally let them out. My sad mood is more knowing how you feel.

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Date: 2005-02-01 01:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 43duckies.livejournal.com
My deepest sympathies. Merlin sounds like a true character, and I can imagine how empty the house feels without him.

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Date: 2005-02-01 02:31 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] siderea
My condolences. It's so sad to lose them both.

Please remember to take care of yourself and [livejournal.com profile] msmemory, and be extra gentle with yourself.

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Date: 2005-02-01 03:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tafkad.livejournal.com
Always sad to lose a loved one. My sympathies.

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Date: 2005-02-01 05:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vortexofchaos.livejournal.com
You have my deepest condolences.

I hadn't really had much cat experience in my life, growing up with dogs and having dogs before the divorce. With [livejournal.com profile] demongrrrrl in my life, her two cats are here, too, and so I am getting the full cat press. Phoebe just came racing by, being ridden by the pixies, with that Antonio Banderas "I could be" look.

Rest assured that they lived a good life, well loved and highly amused. They will still be there, in the shadows, just caught out of the corner of your eyes, causing not-quite-silent mayhem in your memories forever.

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Date: 2005-02-01 06:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chaiya.livejournal.com
I have many *hugs* for you, Justin. Hold your memories tightly, for they will be your comforter on a cold winter night.

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Date: 2005-02-01 12:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elizabear.livejournal.com
Aside from the basics of food and shelter, you offered your cats unconditional love and positive attention. You were all very fortunate to have been with each other and to have had good lives together. Unfortunately, we have this loving relationship with animals who have a lifespan nowhere near our own, but we wouldn't trade it for the world.

Condolences

Date: 2005-02-01 02:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shalmestere.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing loved ones is hard; losing two so close together is harder still....

RC/DP

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Date: 2005-02-01 02:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dreda.livejournal.com
Beautiful - thank you, and deepest condolences.

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Date: 2005-02-01 04:38 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] hungrytiger
Yeah.

Those occassional times feading them while you were away was always fun. They'd both come over and say hi, eat a bit, and then say, "Play with me!"

Marsy and I were chatting with Nemo last night and referred to Merlin and Comet as his friends. They may never have met, but they probably smelled eachother a lot on our various clothes.

I'm gonna miss both of your kidlits so much.

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